{Whatever Happenz}

LONELY HAPPINESS

2011-07-28T21:49:00.005-05:00

ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS IN LIFE IS TO DIE ALONE.

I UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT THAT WE ARE ALL BORN ALONE SAYING, AND THAT WE'LL (DIE) LEAVING THIS WORLD ALONE AS WELL. WELL, THAT'S PARTIALLY TRUE FOR THE ONES BORN TWINS OR TRIPLETS AND SO FORTH.

AND ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE IT'S REALLY NOT THE CHRISTIAN WAY TO THINK OF DYING ALONE WHEN YOU HAVE GOD ON YOUR SIDE. RIGHT?

SEE I'VE THOUGHT IT ALL THE WAY THROUGH, BUT STILL AND NOW I AM AFRAID TO DIE ALONE. . .

MICHAEL JACKSON ONCE SAID " IF YOU ENTER THIS WORLD KNOWING THAT YOU ARE LOVED, AND YOU LEAVE THIS WORLD KNOWING THE SAME, THEN EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN BETWEEN CAN BE DEALT WITH." - MICHAEL JACKSON -

AS A CHILD TIL THE AGE FIVE NO QUESTION - SKIP TIL NOW AND I'M AMAZED AT HOW I'VE MANAGED THE EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN. IT'S SO TRUE THOUGH, IF I COULD HAVE SOMEONE A COMPANION LOVE ME AS HARD AS I THEM THEN LIFE TO ME WOULD BE HAPPINESS.

EVER HAVE SOMEONE ASK YOU WHAT YOU WANT OUT OF LIFE?

SOME ANSWER THE MONEY AND MATERIAL THINGS, AND HERE I AM JUST WANTING THE SIMPLE HAPPINESS. I TRIED TO GAIN IT, BUT IT'S TAKEN FROM ME EVERY TIME WITH NO CARE IN THE WORLD.

HAPPINESS..... HOPING TO LIVE IT BEFORE I DIE IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT.

The Shop

2011-05-31T13:45:00.002-05:00

Last night helped my dad clean the shop! was alot of work, pero surely worth it for the new opening. ah! These last few dayz in kansas city mo/ks ive become more involved with my black side of the family!! we've come a long way and still goin strong!

line ups awready!

Washing My Hands

2011-05-27T12:33:00.003-05:00

I don't find it strange that I hand sanatize every couple of minutes. I love that treat. My grandmother was a nurse so I assume i got it from her!! Thank You Granny! When I am in hospitals I tend to take extra long washing my hands because i have this idea that hospital hand soap isn't the daily household type therefore cleans better lol!! I've been in alot of hospitals lately. Although, that's not a good thing. *sighs* I love my family!

Eventhough my familia and I (both sides) go through ups and downs i kno that at the end of the day they will love me reguardless. (and I kno that can't be said for every household) so I understand I'm blessed.

If it's a friend or a girlfreind...they hate you they hate you. they dont' ever come around no more they never really forgive. They hang up in your face slap you, call you everything, drama, and pain and it just ends that way..... not with family!

So what does clean hands and retarded ass friends/relationships have in common.... probly nothing, but I am washing my hands clean of all those who have done me wrong. All those who stay on their mind frame of being unfair, and unkind. I know I am not perfect, but I could never cause someone to do cruel towards me. I'm extrmely humble, caring, nice hardworking ect.

*washing my hands*......CLEAN.

Gettin' IT off my Chest!

2011-05-11T00:07:00.003-05:00

Sittin' back relaxxin' (finally) had a long scary, tripped out day! I'll just say I can't afford (health wise) to lose anymore family members especially a sibling. ...

anywho was thinkin bout how short life is and how i just want to be happy. no drama, no worries, no stress or pain! I just want to be good and at peace with love and life. Seems like that's still so hard for me to find these days. I give my all and still gutted! *smh* I guess I am stronger than I like to have known and that everything will eventually get better all the way around!.....

I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place... blah!
BlaXx-

MJ Sanity!

2011-03-30T22:23:00.005-05:00

Some things never change thank GOD! Sitting here listening to Michael Jackson's music. It still soothes me at the most down spirling times in life! His voice says everything will be okay Jay. The lyrics explain how so! So with my headphones i stay bobin my head to the cords, the melody and his dance moves in my memories. By time I look up my smile has surfaced again! It's peaceful to know I have somehwere to run to in comfort. I run to God in prayer always, but in the moment of hearing and releasing it's Michael Jackson's music that keeps me safely sane!

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WHY LOVE?

2011-03-29T23:52:00.005-05:00

I WONDER HOW I GOT HERE WITH LOVE. I GUESS IT RAN ITS CORSE AND HAD ENOUGH OF MY CONFUSION, MY WAYS, MY MISUNDERSTANDINGS, MY ... LOVE.

IM HERE STANDING ALONE LEFT HELPLESS LIKE I USE TO TURN LOVE LOSE. IT'S TRUE WHAT THEY SAY WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND AND I AM JUST GETTING THE ROUGH END OF IT, BECAUSE I USE TO GIVE THE ROUGH END... OR SO I THINK!. LOVE SHOULDN'T TAP OUT, AND LOVE SHOULD BE HURTFUL OR SCARED. BUT SHE GIVES LOVE TO ME LIKE THAT, AND I TAKE IT BECAUSE MY HEART IS IN IT, PERO WHY? I VOWED TO NEVER BE IN THIS POSITION. I HATE IT! I HATE BEING UNLOVED.

- BLAXX-

I'M BACK!!!!!!

2011-02-28T17:59:00.003-06:00

TAKING THIS MODELING INDUSTRY BY STORM!

YEP! 2011 IS MY YEAR! CRUZIAL CREATIONZ INC. MODELING IS GOING STRONG STILL AND THE GROUP OF MODELS DOWN WITH IT ARE THE BEST IVE HAD IN THIS WHOLE MODELING BUSINESS!

I SIGNED A YEAR LONG CONTRACT WITH MODEL PRODUCTIONS AND I AM EXCITED TO GET STARTED WITH THAT!

PHOTO BY ANTONIO RAVERA 2011

Confusing Thoughts

2010-05-01T15:55:00.002-05:00

As confusing thoughts race through my mind I sshuffle through them frantically trying to embrace the reason. Trying to understand why i feel this way. People make our lives harder than it has to be. Feelings of hate taunt me towards the troubled minds who push me to feel this way. Thou shall not hate....thats just understoond, but people do things to cause those at peace or trying to find peace to be in life where they are. Mentally its agravating. Thou shall not kill! He said it. Ive had thoughts, and you know the stroy goes that if you 'think it' you've already committed it.....Lord help me revise my thoughts towards happiness and life beauty in a way acceptable to you and your ways. *prayers*

kiss in the wind

2010-04-19T14:59:00.005-05:00

I heard a phrase today that sparked my thoughts...which led me here.

"...a kiss in the wind..." that's the only part that stuck out to me most.

It's strange how good-bye means forever sometimes and you wouldn't even know it unless you began to think back on how 'love' fell apart.

Other times good-bye is temporary, and the kiss was in the wind. You can't savor kisses that come in the wind even though they seem so real in the moment.

These situations cuase us to grow and learn about people and our own feelings! I've learned that i rather no good-bye if you're going to kiss in the wind....*let it go*

CCModeling PoolSide Photo Shoot

2009-08-15T16:08:00.004-05:00

Cruzial Creationz Modeling & K.Swine Images Photography present the atl pride pool side photoshoot! Sep. 4th 2009 @ 9am in Decatur GA! CCoficial modelz to appear:

Mint Genesis BlaXx Different Gotti Chicago Shine

With special guest the DaVinci Bois!! of the

House Of DaVinci!!

Doin' Me

2009-08-06T20:20:00.003-05:00

Thingz have been okay. I mean since the last time you heard from me thingz must muy bueno poque I have natha to complain about. I'm in the light! Im headed in the right direction and i can feel that God acknowledged my drive within life to not let it get the best of me...This Time Around. I'm headed back to doin me, not lookin for nobody to comfort me or be a friend (these things surround me ) I just want to be alone for a lil while and focus on what i have in front of me...great advantages against those who don't want to see me prosper...

who cares.....

I miss Michael still something awful. I find myself crying about it still and itz just too bad another human being took his life and it wasn't a natural cause. I mean any cause is bullshit about him being gone!! I miss him and I think about him alot. I use to use his music to get away and release within and now I hear his music and i fight to release at all......his voice is comforting and yet painful to listen too. Im empty inside and nobody knowz it pero mi! y mj fanz tambien mucho amor Katie, thursty, lisa jackosn, MJ natz, and selena....john and mjcool, lorina, adele, and ivin, malc jennings and Pretty brown eyes and jax, tito (sarah) and Aunt niki from mjsony chat. Tarts, jen and trey, heartbreaker and GWN (great white north) the gloved one and Mr. Michael Jackson, all the mj amigoz y amigaz Ive met around the world from the beginning.....remember the time.

ATL ...well naw!

2009-07-10T19:12:00.004-05:00

Since I've gotten to ATL, life has given me the shit. (We've Had Enough) Thats how I feel. I've lost a best freind. Lost a girlfriend. Went to jail found a record. I CAN say that I've learned alot in goin' through all of this. learning (again) who I can and cannot trust. Atlanta is really a small place. Everyone knows someone too close too home. I swear I've seen everyone I was in jail with. Those on the street and those who aint tryna change. A good chance they headed back. I've hated I forgave. I've cried (R.I.P Michael Jackson) and I've fought. Said my peace and bounced!!

I'm blessed still though. God has been great to me as satan claimed he was goin' to drag me under. I kept my eye on God, and was in the right. I did not do anything to any1 and I feel like thats why I'm in the good and doin even better. Everyone else around me seems so lonely, and Im not.

I got a beautiful new girlfreind, who happened to be a HUGE Michael Jackson fan as well and I couldn't ask for more. I believe Michael Jackson is the reason we met and God gave us one another to help each other lay Michael down to rest. *sighs* It's been hard pero Im here ya dig!

Michael Jackson

2009-07-10T18:29:00.002-05:00

When your life was a 'Thriller' and they seem'd to understand, it was then the true fans seperated from the rest of the world -

I loved you the moment I heard you sing

stayed around to hear all that you'd bring

Never betrayed you through rumors and lies

all i ever did was feel your pain within my cries

J.Child is one of your biggest fans

here to push on forward with your plans

to change the world and make a better place

for you me and the entire human race.

Michael you would have loved to know

that you really helped the world grow

The fans all miss you

and of course I do to

The media says better things about you

although the fans always knew you were true

Your name is spoken of across the universe

everyone knows at least one meaningful verse

Some of the fans feel over shadowed now

because the rest of the world claims they know now

how everything you stood for wasn't anything bad, dangerous, or bizare, and that you really are the King Of MUSIC. So much influence. I love you Michael Jackson alwayz and forever.

Been gone too long

2009-07-10T18:17:00.002-05:00

I feel like within these 2months of what was suppose to be a transformation of a new beginning and a change in my life have took hell detours onto wrong paths and even roads to broken hearts. I've lost one of the greatest motivations within my life, MICHAEL JACKSON.

I'm in a struggle to cope with this sudden loss, and trying to figure out how to keep going. I know Michael's music help'd me to keep goin' in life & thank GOD he gave alot to last throughout years and years of pain. Even long after he's gone. I must keep my head up and push forward. Keeping the King Of Pop alive!

R.I.P Michael J. Jackson 1958 - 2009

Thankful...pero It aint over yet!

2009-04-17T16:23:00.004-05:00

I'm not the type of person to take thingz for granted because you'll never know when they could be gone. Only thing I took for granted was my health. Assured it was mine yesterday I got one hell of a scare when I had to go to the Emergency Room (ER) do to pain in my chest that I had been brushing off for a long time now. I've been diagnosed with Costochondritis since I was 15. A mild case that my doctor made me to believe would go away and I'm healthy again. So I never followed up after 2006 when an ambulance rushed me to a Texas hospital.

Now look at me. The situation is worse and more serious then I had imagined. Doctors did a series of test on me yesterday. Heart test, blood test, X-rays and further more a radioactive nuclear test to assure I had no blood clots in my lungs. I prayed laying there waiting for the results. I cried waiting to the results. I got angry at myself while waiting for the results. I missed my mother so much waiting for these results. I stress & worries too mucho, now look at my results. There is no written or known cause to the disability I have called Chronic Costochondritis, and doctors still can't rule out if I have Lupus or not yet. I'm just thankful to be here still today, and able to leave a piece of me behind before its too late. I know my battle with my health is far from over, pero God is Good! -Amen

Sumtymez...

2009-04-09T01:18:00.004-05:00

People don't realize what they have until it's gone....
Thats just so fucking true...something so simple to grasp
actually holds all this damn meaning behind it!
I can claim my own doing and not be afraid about it...
I mean I now realize what I had and should have settled on that path I was giving
pero, we dont we get greedy and keep it moving...
So what if your on the end of the gone part...
when you've had enough and you can't get the person to realize
when all your energy put into the friendship or relationship is exhausting?
when you really believed in the person...to realize or change
when you tried everything to make shyt right?

I've tried and im done with the nonsence...and this goes out to more then one person nosy folXx
Im ready to excape again and be free willed again. when feelings were not felt
when emotions never held me back
when the thought of true happiness was so far up ahead that I shouldnt have even worried about trying to catch up! Im human and I'll connect one day with that other human that will help me continue in lyfe, love, & peace...
They can't never say I aint try & or that I haven't changed...

I alwayz say Im not the ONE!....
Im not that nukka to be just chillin while someone takes advantage
or I wont sit there in silence 4 the satisfaction to know ones moving on or baggage...
Im an alright stud ya dig, and I know Ive come along way to make the right woman happy...

I've found out that my seXx is better then I brag about...
I wanted to see that as someone that I wasn't no more you know the old me...
pero shyt maybe I should give myself more credit ha!
Im not cocky, not full about myself.....
pero you know I'm THAT nukka on THAT side of the spectrum.
I'm game to play the way otherz may...to make them realize who I am,
and WHO they shouldnt have taken for granted... I love it!
I love me....mas then them pero neva mas the jesus!
amen jay amen BlaXx....
Tejas here I come re-born again!

R.I.P. Selina (mjfan)

2009-04-07T11:11:00.005-05:00

It's crazy to think that in this world we get attached or come across so many different people, and if you're not a regular internet person you wouldn't understand how feelingz can easily gain expression and concern through the cyber world. I first became a Michael Jackson fan alone, and when i discovered on the internest that there were so many more like me it became a place of peace and happiness that only MJ fanz could understand!
I have a few mjfan freindz in london and I care for them alot!
R.I.P. to selina a london friend i gained over the past 4yrz on myspace and mjsites...You will be missed guh!
Gone Too Soon!
BlaXxIcaN - ya mj amigo!

Gone Too Soon - Michael Jackson

We've Already Had Enough!

2009-04-03T16:09:00.003-05:00

I can not believe this is the world in which we say we live in and love.

Not just america, but our entire world.

Guh Bye!

2009-04-03T15:56:00.003-05:00

I didn't do it for you
and i didn't do it for her
but i did it for me
me and my happiness
cause noone cares i guess
made the decision to follow my path
to leave yaw stuck here to claim the math
who had mas amor
who had the control
who fucked better
yah yah yah!
you've taken it to far...
so when im outa mind & outa sight
make sure that you sleep tonight
becuase ill be doin what i do best
and basiclly its better then rest you test
Im taken the stage now and Im gown about it
thingz are the way they are now
because thats how they fit
your life aginst mine
and hers aginst mine
and me aginst you both
and im not tripin i coast
Im peace. im firm , cautious and seXxy
to think the next bitch who test me
gon miss me even more
shoulda known what you was lookin for...
Jay-

BOTDF...hmm?

2009-04-03T15:14:00.009-05:00

Blood on the Dance Floor?
I love the song, and lawd knowz I love blood, but what about the message?
I really won't recomend anyone to dare whos trying to make shyt official. if your out on a midnight strool drunk looking for pussy then yea maybe. Why do those dayz seemd so missed when I'm older wiser and more on to the shyt dat Karma can play?
I've decided I wanted to be the old me again and not open up again til I ont want no Susie. caught the eye, tempted my fellings and lusted the kiss....maybe I should. It feels great! becuz in the end it's not about love and romance...and now...

Blood On The Dance Floor - Michael Jackson

Who Knew?

2009-03-30T20:57:00.005-05:00

I fucked around and....loved her.

I'm not afraid to admit anymore where my heart goes.

Sometimes tu corizon can lead you to the most beautiful people,

and you wouldn't even know it if they just sat neXxt to on a train

or if you just saw em in the passing of a busy street.

You can know them forever and never really know them at all.

The beauty behind the pain of everything you put into it.

And even if its not ment to be...

at least you got closer then you were when all you could do is watch.

Some of the most happiest momentz in lyfe/love

are when you least expect them.

When Gods will falls into play as he planned it.

When you open your eyes in the momentz you've alwayz dream'd of

and she's there...

And when you close them again...

you realize you were dreaming,

and none of this is real.

Nothing happend.

Nothing else matters,

pero the feelings.

And the only thing from keeping you from going insane

is the fact that it could have happend

IF things were just a little bit different....

...jus maybe?

pero Who Knew?

-Jay-

(cause Lezire could never love)

Wait Forever - Lemar

Mid-World Clothing

2009-03-30T20:40:00.006-05:00

I've been having fun promoting underground clothing because its new, and no one has these clothes yet! And if they do they on the new shyt! I like what I do and I love helping people express themselves or their business. (mainly fashion) but I've been all over these days helping folXx express what they feel is the neXxt big thing or loving what they have a drive for. Everyone knows clothes are the biggest way neXxt to music to Xpress yourself so why not!

Shout Outs to E-Man from St. Louis (MWSU) CEO of Mid-World Clothing.

We'll work closer soon enough! Cruzial Creationz Inc, Modeling is on a lot of new things yawl just wait! Alot of people think because we're studs&dom models that we only rep for our LGBT Community! NOT the case ha! I love mens clothes no matter who makes em! Mucho amor FolXx...

- BlaXxIcaN -

One Or the Other?

2009-03-30T18:33:00.002-05:00

I guess Ima greedy ass muthafuckA & aint know it!

One or the other?....Love or Life.

Which one is going to be good?

Those with serious jobs making money dont usualy have time for L.O.V.E

Lyfe easez the pain somewhat though. Makes it worth pushing more for....

{BlaXxIcaN}

TomBoi24~7 Clothing (PartII)

2009-03-17T13:20:00.003-05:00

So Im still helping TB24-7 Clothing promote a brand new line of clothes for fam and those interested! It felt good to wear something you know aint even hit closetz yet ya know?

The shoot so far has been good two more shirtz to push and Im all over it!

Wanna give them (TB247) thanXx for making me their model promoter a new face to the clothing line! This is what I came here to do and Im going to make it hawwt! -BlaXx

www.myspace.com/cruzial_creationz - to see more piXx!

I love her...

2009-02-10T22:20:00.003-06:00

One of the best thingz in my life came free.

Came right on time, and it aint even mine.

I love to share what is so special to me....

I've done alot in my life & not only do I want to do better for me,

pero ella tambien!

Shes motivation.

Shes what makez me sensative and strong all at once.

Her laugh pulls me in and melts me.

She iz mi corizon and I amor ella mucho!

My Niece JazMyah & I

On da road....Again!

2009-02-09T15:14:00.004-06:00

I stay on da road and I stay trvelN hardcore!

I amor it.

Givez me a way to X'cape from all that Im surrounded by on a daily.

Those that I amor pero need distance from.

Those I amor and have not seen in foeva eva foeva EVA!

Thiz weekend was koo fasho! Kik'd it In Omaha

Of all the placez Ive been

and love to be in

Omaha Nebraska came out of the middle of nowhere!

It was live though

and I plan to go back!

We went to a club caw'd 2010 or sum'N lyke dat.

Hud ass fuck pero aw da yellow bonez in da world!

A cross between country & City livin' *shrugz*

maybe itz jus becuase itz spread out i ont kno pero

the night was nice and I SiR BlaXxIcaN DV was on da scene!

So BudIce was my boo

and UV (green apple) was my bitch

& we road Omaha til da wheelz fell off!

Chiken Gizardz N liver was da BOMB!!!

Hit it up wit sum TABASCO suace...

and I was set nukka!

Kush was in da air and Im RollN!

All that to say I waz pass'd out by 9am da neXxt day!

Kiss Me Thru The Phone Remix - Soulja Boy Tell Em ft.Sammie,Pitbull

P.U.S.H.

2009-01-28T21:59:00.006-06:00

Lately lyfe has been thro'N me "the catch."

I've been findN alot of peace within,

and lawd knowz itz great when shyt goes as planned.

I use 2 stre$$ the small shyt, and now I feel lyke I don't have 2 no mas.

I pray about thingz az they come & go.

i try to take una diaz @ta tyme...

If you leave thingz in Godz handz he'll take care of tu!

Itz his will anyway so if itz goN 2 happen

then let it por que there'z natha tu can do bout it.

He may not come when you call upon him N ur prayerz,

pero I promise he's siempre on Ahora! -Amen-

{iBlaXxIcaN}

King Of Kings (Hes A Wonder) - CeCe Winans

grasp'N tha momentz, I cannot have

2009-01-23T15:15:00.009-06:00

Hold'N on 2 memories that aint mine to have isn't selfish pero it can mis lead you a lot. leaving tu corizon stuck in an ice boXx towardz no where. I try to grasp 'us' for the moment and its a shame i can't really recall porque or como we even got here in this moment. porque we still p.u.s.h. on about the realationship we have. In both of our hopez itz some type of happinezz 2getha. Tryin to see the cup half full instead of half empty, pero really there is no cup for us.

I continue to spend this tyme with you becuase I want to becuase my feelingz wont allow me to do anything else pero wanna live in tha momentz givin to us. God Bless I'm not complain'N pero wheres the middle groundz? why do you either have to be my best freind or natha at all??

So I ask myself (daily) do i love her or do I jus wanna love her? & really my answer isn't tha hard to come to terms with becuase I kno how I feel, pero decid'N wethA I'm ready to love her or her being ready to Xcept my love is what scares me....

Spending time with you puts the world in motion, and at the same time pauses everything around me. I can sit there for hours and watch the faces you make at the tv or the faces you make at me on the sly becuase you kno Im watching anyway. My life becomes a part of your & in that moment everything is okay. Everything is meant to be. The moments that are MINE pero not forever. A tease in2 what I couldA, shouldA, wouldA had if I did righ by relationships in the past.....

when I kiss you my world rotates... when you kiss me my world stops...

Slowly - Rashad

Cruzialy Cold Photoshoot Part I

2009-01-13T22:17:00.004-06:00

So Im hella anxious bout the photoshoot in february.

Finally things are coming together,

after all this time and persistance!

I get to meet alot of the models I have not

and Itz C.C.I. Official!

Ride...Or Die lol!

2009-01-09T19:36:00.002-06:00

AftA a long day of da goverNmentz B.S. I came home {skool brake} to the most lov'N lil sis N prcious nefew in the world!

You kno dat say'N "...on't let da gud looXx fool ya?.." well itz obvious theze kidz iz hud....2gethA they r almost unstopable...

And, tho, I've had my 'french' spanglish twist'd around them plenty tymez {aw da mas 2 grow on} I love them 2 death! nukka 2 DEATH!!! ....lol

I let em' have there fun tho, cuz lawd knowz most tymez Im da 'bad stud' pero I'ma firm believA n disApline awready.....

They aw N aw my rode dawgz N nukka we Ride fasho!

Mucho Amor MaKayela and Shiheem'

Maybe.

2008-12-28T19:55:00.003-06:00

Probly 1 of the darkest tunnelz I've been downe in my lyfe,

pero I'm glad I did it.

So mucho pain came out of the end,

pero (you're) still around.

still that girl who pushes my 'crush'...

Maybe I shouldn't have,
pero maybe I'm glad I did.
.....cuz we're one step closer now...today
then we were yesterday.....

si! I love tu guh!

Jay-

Guess they neva gon leave em alone......

2008-12-22T14:40:00.003-06:00

http://mjjr.net/news-i361-9.html
Tabloid...: Ian Halperin Promotes Sensational Book, LiesExclusively Written & Compiled For MJJ RepositoryTSCM
By now, many have probably read or heard about the recurring media reports spawned by author/journalist Ian Halperin, in which he makes some very serious allegations about the physical health and well-being of Michael Jackson. Although Ian quietly posted these allegations approximately two weeks ago on his own personal site, it only recently garnered widespread media attention after it came to light that he was also penning a book on the singer. Within the past couple of days, Ian's story has become so popular that even Associated Press is now reporting on it. MJJR.net will be glad to spread some light on these falsehoods, but first some background information.More than two weeks ago, Ian first made these outlandish Jackson-related allegations on his site while plugging In Touch Weekly magazine, in which a lengthier article subsequently appeared. Ian claims that Michael Jackson suffers from Antitrypsin Deficiency (a.k.a. Alpha-1) amongst other illnesses (including that he is "95% blind in his left eye"). Ian quoted an unnamed "close friend" of Michael Jackson as saying that "Michael wants to have the lung transplant but because of other illnesses he's fighting he's too weak to undergo such a major procedure. He's taking one painkiller after another. I've known him over 20 years and have never seen him in such a frail state. It's very sad," amongst other grossly sensational claims.Today, Ian wrote a second entry about this so-called "exclusive" in which he quoted an unnamed female allegedly from Michael Jackson's camp as saying: "We're deeply worried about Michael's health. It has taken a huge toll on his family and everyone around him." Ian, in an attempt of saving face, also posted a public picture of Michael Jackson taken several days after these claims were first made (where Michael was shopping in Zorro-like attire), while erroneously claiming that he was "being supported by an aide because he was having trouble walking," and adding that according to the unnamed female, "Michael was urged by his people to make a public appearance to let the world know he's still alive." Finally, Ian made a blatantly false claim about an alleged quote by Jermaine Jackson.Fact: In the picture depicted on Ian's site, the only "support" being given to Michael is that of security as fans gather around him (with one arm of security hastily placed behind Michael at the time the picture was snapped). What Ian didn't post was the half-dozen or so other pictures from that same day in which Michael is freely standing, shopping, greeting fans, accepting gifts, and walking on his own while carrying his own umbrella just as he has throughout the years. Michael Jackson was again photographed in public a couple days ago, and again he was walking on his own with no "support" in sight.Fact: In Ian's latest blog entry, and in many of the new media reports he has provided information to, he states: "When Fox News contacted the singer's older brother, Jermaine, to confirm my report, he refused to deny it. Instead, Jackson told the reporter, 'he's not doing well right now. This isn't a good time.'" This claim is categorically false on all fronts. First, the alleged quote that he is referencing is actually from JULY 2007 and originates from gossip columnist Roger Friedman--who spread a similar story to Ian's more than a year ago. Thus, Ian is taking an 18-month old, unconfirmed quote from a gossip columnist and using it as new information to somehow substantiate his own claims--this is a testament to Ian's credibility (or lack-thereof).Ian is no stranger to writing questionable and unsubstantiated material, and has been doing so since the 1980s when he was still a student reporter. In 1984, an athletic director at his college filed a $100,000 libel suit against him and another writer for making multiple allegations of improper conduct within the university's athletic department. Ian was later criminally charged with providing false testimony and lying under oath in the civil case after three different sources denied providing him with any of the information he claimed they had. Ian fled Canada to avoid criminal prosecution and remained in Great Britain for 2.5 years before returning to face the court. In 1990, the judge in the case said he was forced to close it due to a lack of corroborating evidence presented by the prosecution, although Ian did serve time in jail for fleeing the country.Ian again stirred up controversy in 1994 when he helped co-author a book that alleged Kurt Cobain's death was homicide rather than suicide. The story Ian and his partner told, and the allegations they made changed significantly as their publicity tour continued, and their sources for the allegations were likewise heavily scrutinized by the media at the time. When the book was published years later, both of these authors admitted they weren't able to offer any solid evidence to implicate anyone in the alleged murder of Cobain, despite writing a book full of insinuations.Likewise, when Ian published a book about singer-songwriter James Taylor in 2000, professional reviewers and others in the press questioned many of the quotes and statements he made throughout the book while also pointing out how he failed to provide sources for most of the far-fetched quotes--and how the book seemed shallow and offered very little new information about Taylor.As mentioned earlier, in 2007 various tabloid outlets and gossip columnists including Roger Friedman and National Enquirer wrote similar claims about Michael Jackson--that he was severely ill with one or more failing organs and on his final days. In late-2005 into 2006, tabloid reports surfaced that he was in critical condition after a drug overdose and that his family was planning an emergency intervention to save his life. In 2004-2005 there were still other reports of suicide and overdoses; a widespread e-mail chain and virus at the time helped fuel such rumors. In fact, if you dig deep enough you will find similar stories dating back to the 1980s and beyond; none of which hold any more merit than the next. All of these earlier claims were slammed by Michael Jackson's family and representatives, and Michael Jackson's subsequent public appearances seemed to confirm that these "bed-ridden" stories were categorically false.In this case, we have an author who is trying hard to come up with a sensational new angle for yet another unauthorized Michael Jackson book--as if the market isn't saturated enough as it is. We have an author who was sued for libel (and then for perjury) while still a student for printing information that his own sources refuted under oath. We have an author who enjoys the widespread publicity that comes with writing books about tragic events and major celebrities. Diane Dimond secretly worked on a sensational Michael Jackson book throughout the 2003-2005 trial and was shopping the material to publishers as early as late-2003. A major publisher ultimately released her book in late-2005 alongside a large media tour--and even then it only sold a mere 5,000 copies worldwide after 1-2 months of release. I predict that this book will sell even less than that, despite the heavy media attention Ian is enjoying at this time.Source: http://MJJR.net/

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2008-12-20T00:24:00.004-06:00

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Swagg Of A College Stud

2008-12-19T23:57:00.002-06:00

Finalz been ova wit and GPA'z appeared through the weekend. {average} Si! I'm satisfied for 1st semester pero the end of this year I wanna push justa lil bit hardA! Im sure it won't B easy pero Im ready. Glad Psych. iz outta da way fasho!! I'm lovin' da college yearz still pero I aint kno thangz wud change so quickly and move so fast. 1st year is basiclly unda my belt and Im awready lookN' 2 transfer. Apply myself deeper in2 my passion of English studies. I'ma make an Xtra effort 2 make 2009 about Jay' & no1 else. I'm tired of try'N 2 make every1 happy. Education is my drive, my dedication, and detour 4 everything in lyfe. In me... I'm seriously focused! FuXx wit it!

Gud Advice!...

2008-12-19T23:20:00.006-06:00

"Sometimes in life the hardest decision to make is the RIGHT decision." -Pam-

We live N we learn. You gain sum tu lose sum. Keep ya head up and aim for the positive N the situation. Figure out where you'll grow from it. Sumtymez lett'N go of thingz smoothz everything out N the end. Keep your mind focused on the gud & don't let no1 around you push you off course. Live your lyfe 2 the fullest & don't be scared 2 look back. As long as you're moving forward then there will B tyme for reflection. These are the memories that keep you goin'. Keepz tu strong & set. I won't change natha about my past, pero everythang bout my future. I'm so far in, they wudn't Xpekt 2 even see me there... BOO!

Fo Porque Foo!?!

2008-12-09T14:33:00.003-06:00

I will not! *I repeat WILL NOT* tolerate da bullshyt Foo!!! This blog stemz from the way I decided to handle my life N shout outz 2 (A.Diva 4 putt'N dem HaTaz in check) Fasho! Bullshyt is becomiN 2 B okay kay kay wit sum nukkaz pero not ova here. stupidiTy equalz bullshyt and I'm not da uno! You say stupido shyt tu gon geta stupido answer. You akt brand nuevo Ima akt old skool and spit fyah in da miXx. My temper doesn't allow me to be calm about da dumb shyt and neithA does my up bring'N. There's a tyme & place for errythang foolish pero learn yo role nukka for I start place'N miss'N ad'z! Makez no sence 4 tu 2 B the way U are or dat you ont see a problemo wit it! I swear Ima b da same o'l Jay bout dumb shyt lyke thiz....so fiXx yoself bytche(z)!!!

ask yoself BEFORE YOU SPEAK ....Fo porque?

SuckHeR

2008-12-02T20:15:00.002-06:00

Yea I did it! Lost control and suck'd her! Went Vampish on her neck. Stared into her eyez until she felt me mentaly, physically, seXxualy...

Then I SuckHeR lyke a sucker too gud to wanna fuck her & I wanna say I love her pero 2 close to lose her...

and Ima suckher cuz Im in this deep, pero mama got me goin' got me open. got me posted! I'm not tripp'N cuz Im chill'N & she step'd forth above so many now I have plenty cuz Ima suckA so I suckHeR....

(2 B continued...)

"where tu been Jay?"

"Nukka on da G.O. ha! fasho!" suckaz!

Twilight

2008-12-01T08:34:00.003-06:00

Twilight waz everything I wanted y mas.... had me all in the moment in my feelinz y mi corizon. To feel what they feel and to rome mentaly as they do so gracefuly. And they say porque?....porque not! If it were true it'd b me. If it could happen, I'd be wutz happne'N fasho! I still live my lyfe unlike the normal and I may have different reason porque thingz shud b done lyke so, pero itz all in anotha part of me and I amor it!!....

Thankzgiving wuz the shyt! Food wuz on point! Famillia was around! drankz wuz in my hand and JotA was on da gud gud!! awready! I hope every1'z holiday was as blessed as minez....holidayz seem 2 stick closer to tragik momentz...we ont need natha no mas....

Jay-

Past, Present & Future

2008-11-24T15:37:00.006-06:00

"Yesterday, Today and Forever..."

Past relationshipz I have learned from so I'll never regret any one I've loved. Anyone who was worthy of having my child. LGBT society is like any other famillia. You can love the same. You can teach the same. You can shelter a child the same, and definetly we can build 2gether. It never alwayz workz out how you wish pero itz worth a try. I try until the hope completely fadez into the forgotten past. Pero there is still one thing that I hold onto forever....

Present relationshipz are nor here nor there. They just are. (wut it iz) I'm still learning and enjoying the journey. I'm definetly doing me pero I keep it honest! forever & today. I hold on to whatz familliar now. What I dream'd last night, and all in all itz still what i cling to. What I hope for to one day have. Yet, everything happenz for a reason so Im in no rush!

Future is that I have mi famillia. However, whomever, whenever it will happen one day some way some how. I love. I cry. I pray. I'll die...I'm human. So let me give what I want. Let me show what I know. Let me love how I do. Let me watch as they grow. Pick them up when they fall. Teach them to stand tall. Remember when they crawl. Let me be what people can't see me to be.....

They shall caw me "studdy" I am a stud.
Im not a "dom" so they will not caw me dommy.
I'm not the fem Im not their mommy
I'm Jay and I love my kidz. all of them past, present and future.....

Jaylen Cruz "So Fre$h" Casanova

Ahmad Kamal Casanova

Jayson ________ Buchanan

Damien Michael Buchanan

Xavier & Xavierre Casanova

Aljuaun & Alejah Buchanan

Courtney Alexander & Aaliyah Cierra Casanova

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{Realize}

2008-11-20T14:13:00.002-06:00

It'z cold outside....

You can never make all the people around you happy all of the time.

It's impossible!

One who has a GRANDE corizon lyke myself,

strugglez to keep my spiritz lifted

when 'she's' mad, hurt, sad or lonely.

I wanna be the one to be there for you,

pero I can't

cuz you're selfish

and you only want (all) the undivided attention in the world.

If Im suppose to be tu amigo(a)

then it shouldn't matter what form I come @ you

jus be moved that Im even reaching out for you!

People take for granted often those who really care about them

for those who really don't.

I've been a great person 2 too many of you

and I say 2day

I wil no longer leave myself to be kicked downe no mas.

I can't.

I won't.

...I haven't!

With That said I leave you wit some real wordz from a gud amigo Of Minez Tiny aka Brazil:

"REAL EYEZ _REALIZE _REAL LIEZ"

Oh EmM GeE

2008-11-18T21:55:00.000-06:00

I wanna kno my femz, porque thingz dat we don't comprende, they so interest'N PORQUE!!!
She ack'N Sookie, and Im as pissed as Bill porque, its my trueblood. one little miscommunication & im blown how she say. I'm pissed, how I say. I'm livid how they express! My expressionz are off because I'm keepin thingz fair, no real! & you Sookie, pedo im downe Im here we koo, you fine, im gud, you sexy, im dun, im over it blah!!!

Studded w/ My BoxAz On

2008-11-17T20:40:00.006-06:00

You got yo T-shirt and yo panties,

And I'm studded wit my boxaz on...

This belt is my mojo. C is for Casanova. Remindz me how I should stay put'N it downe cuz I gotta hold tha name. Gotta Akt A Azz uno tyme! Ha! Da TABASCO add da fyah to whomevaz desire. Yea Itz dat serious. Pero itz a BlaXxIcaN thang ya dig! Smash while I hit my duggie on o'l guh! awready....

So I decided I was gon cholo da rest of da way through the weekend and put it downe in my low low lyke Mr. Sancho! Ha!! Threw back a couple a beers and told her "ven aca chica!" Ordele! Si! Still solid wit my mojo "C" still hit'N my duggie pero this tyme i gotta my house shoez on (not da timbz) smashin wit a cha cha. Baila esta cumbia!! SA! Can I have my loc'z back?
{BlaXxIcaN wey}

Have My Baby - Lloyd

LeZire The VamPian

2008-11-17T16:02:00.003-06:00

LEZIRE, the Vampian (Lezbian Vampire) comes and goes as she pleases. I'm just the body in which she carries her personality inside. I do not know how to hide Lezire from the rest of the world, pero she seems to have it downe packed, for she only shows herself to those who intrigue her. I have no control over her urges because they are truly hers only. I do not mind living the double life although, some days I'm drained. The Night sky has alwayz been so gud 2 me, and Im sure Lezire understandz. *sighs* Some morningz I wake up BlaXx, and I soon realize when I look in the mirror that Lezire was my chaperon the night before. I wake up wit Lezirez glow in my eyes, and her grin within my feelingz. BlaXx has No memory of what happened only Lezire.
Some people ask me questionz that only Lezire should have the answer for pero I try to answer them to the best of my ability as I get their blank stares. I see right through them though because I am a Fanger! I am Lezire and somehow it all works itself out in the end. Some days I can quench the the thirst myself. Other dayz Lezire must take over... Stud Vampirez do exist, so be careful whom you sleep w/ Femz.....
And 2 my fellow studz, Lady Vamper lurckz around the corner wating to seduce you as her neXxt victum.
{Lezire}

DaVinci Famillia

2008-11-17T15:26:00.004-06:00

I'm creep'N up on my one year Anniversary with mi DaVinci Famillia and Im greaful to be apart of a famillia who defines the true meaning of amor, honor, loyalty, respect, and realness. When I 1st decided that I was going 2 join a casa. I really wasn't so sure porque I wanted to join I just knew if i did I wanted to be where I fit in and where I belong. I wanted the famillia to bring to me what I brought to the famillia. I wanted there to be hope within our LGBT Community that there was still good people in the community and show everyone we are not a huge soap opra. We have feelings and our sexuality is mas then a show, mas then a trend...
DaVinci's Came, Saw & Conquered all these things and mas. I amor Mi Davinci Famillia Y Natha can change that!
I owe a huge amount of my loyalty, amor & trust to my casa Madre (Mother Entyce DaVinci) For pushing the famillia to the places you see us today. For having hope in her sons and daughters as she over sees our covenant. (RED & BLACK)

Mucho Amor {Sir BlaXxIcaN DaVinci}

Content..

2008-11-17T08:35:00.000-06:00

I am content in my own wayz, and most wayz many will never understand. I feel tho, as if, it starts within ones self to become content in your individual surroundings. One cannot make you content...for life. Content to me is calm. Something hella close to peaceful. A peaceful mind frame around situations great and tormenting. I'm honestly at the point in my life that I can say Im content.... I don't need stress in my life, no one does! I'm sure there are alot of things missing in my life, and many things I wish were, pero Im greatful God has me alive 2day and natha else matterz after that...

Be content with your life, You only live it once!

{Sir BlaXxIcaN DaVinci/Lezire Da Vampian}