P.U.S.H.

Lately lyfe has been thro'N me "the catch."

I've been findN alot of peace within,

and lawd knowz itz great when shyt goes as planned.

I use 2 stre$$ the small shyt, and now I feel lyke I don't have 2 no mas.

I pray about thingz az they come & go.

i try to take una diaz @ta tyme...

If you leave thingz in Godz handz he'll take care of tu!

Itz his will anyway so if itz goN 2 happen

then let it por que there'z natha tu can do bout it.

He may not come when you call upon him N ur prayerz,

pero I promise he's siempre on Ahora! -Amen-

{iBlaXxIcaN}

King Of Kings (Hes A Wonder) - CeCe Winans

grasp'N tha momentz, I cannot have

Hold'N on 2 memories that aint mine to have isn't selfish pero it can mis lead you a lot. leaving tu corizon stuck in an ice boXx towardz no where. I try to grasp 'us' for the moment and its a shame i can't really recall porque or como we even got here in this moment. porque we still p.u.s.h. on about the realationship we have. In both of our hopez itz some type of happinezz 2getha. Tryin to see the cup half full instead of half empty, pero really there is no cup for us.


I continue to spend this tyme with you becuase I want to becuase my feelingz wont allow me to do anything else pero wanna live in tha momentz givin to us. God Bless I'm not complain'N pero wheres the middle groundz? why do you either have to be my best freind or natha at all??





So I ask myself (daily) do i love her or do I jus wanna love her? & really my answer isn't tha hard to come to terms with becuase I kno how I feel, pero decid'N wethA I'm ready to love her or her being ready to Xcept my love is what scares me....

Spending time with you puts the world in motion, and at the same time pauses everything around me. I can sit there for hours and watch the faces you make at the tv or the faces you make at me on the sly becuase you kno Im watching anyway. My life becomes a part of your & in that moment everything is okay. Everything is meant to be. The moments that are MINE pero not forever. A tease in2 what I couldA, shouldA, wouldA had if I did righ by relationships in the past.....


when I kiss you my world rotates... when you kiss me my world stops...

Slowly - Rashad

Cruzialy Cold Photoshoot Part I

So Im hella anxious bout the photoshoot in february.

Finally things are coming together,

after all this time and persistance!

I get to meet alot of the models I have not

and Itz C.C.I. Official!

Ride...Or Die lol!

AftA a long day of da goverNmentz B.S. I came home {skool brake} to the most lov'N lil sis N prcious nefew in the world!

You kno dat say'N "...on't let da gud looXx fool ya?.." well itz obvious theze kidz iz hud....2gethA they r almost unstopable...

And, tho, I've had my 'french' spanglish twist'd around them plenty tymez {aw da mas 2 grow on} I love them 2 death! nukka 2 DEATH!!! ....lol

I let em' have there fun tho, cuz lawd knowz most tymez Im da 'bad stud' pero I'ma firm believA n disApline awready.....

They aw N aw my rode dawgz N nukka we Ride fasho!

Mucho Amor MaKayela and Shiheem'