Past, Present & Future

"Yesterday, Today and Forever..."

Past relationshipz I have learned from so I'll never regret any one I've loved. Anyone who was worthy of having my child. LGBT society is like any other famillia. You can love the same. You can teach the same. You can shelter a child the same, and definetly we can build 2gether. It never alwayz workz out how you wish pero itz worth a try. I try until the hope completely fadez into the forgotten past. Pero there is still one thing that I hold onto forever....

Present relationshipz are nor here nor there. They just are. (wut it iz) I'm still learning and enjoying the journey. I'm definetly doing me pero I keep it honest! forever & today. I hold on to whatz familliar now. What I dream'd last night, and all in all itz still what i cling to. What I hope for to one day have. Yet, everything happenz for a reason so Im in no rush!

Future is that I have mi famillia. However, whomever, whenever it will happen one day some way some how. I love. I cry. I pray. I'll die...I'm human. So let me give what I want. Let me show what I know. Let me love how I do. Let me watch as they grow. Pick them up when they fall. Teach them to stand tall. Remember when they crawl. Let me be what people can't see me to be.....

They shall caw me "studdy" I am a stud.
Im not a "dom" so they will not caw me dommy.
I'm not the fem Im not their mommy
I'm Jay and I love my kidz. all of them past, present and future.....


Jaylen Cruz "So Fre$h" Casanova

Ahmad Kamal Casanova

Jayson ________ Buchanan

Damien Michael Buchanan

Xavier & Xavierre Casanova

Aljuaun & Alejah Buchanan

Courtney Alexander & Aaliyah Cierra Casanova

Jaden & Marley Casanova

{Realize}

It'z cold outside....

You can never make all the people around you happy all of the time.

It's impossible!

One who has a GRANDE corizon lyke myself,

strugglez to keep my spiritz lifted

when 'she's' mad, hurt, sad or lonely.

I wanna be the one to be there for you,

pero I can't

cuz you're selfish

and you only want (all) the undivided attention in the world.

If Im suppose to be tu amigo(a)

then it shouldn't matter what form I come @ you

jus be moved that Im even reaching out for you!

People take for granted often those who really care about them

for those who really don't.

I've been a great person 2 too many of you

and I say 2day

I wil no longer leave myself to be kicked downe no mas.

I can't.

I won't.

...I haven't!

With That said I leave you wit some real wordz from a gud amigo Of Minez Tiny aka Brazil:

"REAL EYEZ _REALIZE _REAL LIEZ"

Oh EmM GeE

I wanna kno my femz, porque thingz dat we don't comprende, they so interest'N PORQUE!!!
She ack'N Sookie, and Im as pissed as Bill porque, its my trueblood. one little miscommunication & im blown how she say. I'm pissed, how I say. I'm livid how they express! My expressionz are off because I'm keepin thingz fair, no real! & you Sookie, pedo im downe Im here we koo, you fine, im gud, you sexy, im dun, im over it blah!!!

Studded w/ My BoxAz On

You got yo T-shirt and yo panties,



And I'm studded wit my boxaz on...






This belt is my mojo. C is for Casanova. Remindz me how I should stay put'N it downe cuz I gotta hold tha name. Gotta Akt A Azz uno tyme! Ha! Da TABASCO add da fyah to whomevaz desire. Yea Itz dat serious. Pero itz a BlaXxIcaN thang ya dig! Smash while I hit my duggie on o'l guh! awready....





So I decided I was gon cholo da rest of da way through the weekend and put it downe in my low low lyke Mr. Sancho! Ha!! Threw back a couple a beers and told her "ven aca chica!" Ordele! Si! Still solid wit my mojo "C" still hit'N my duggie pero this tyme i gotta my house shoez on (not da timbz) smashin wit a cha cha. Baila esta cumbia!! SA! Can I have my loc'z back?
{BlaXxIcaN wey}

LeZire The VamPian

LEZIRE, the Vampian (Lezbian Vampire) comes and goes as she pleases. I'm just the body in which she carries her personality inside. I do not know how to hide Lezire from the rest of the world, pero she seems to have it downe packed, for she only shows herself to those who intrigue her. I have no control over her urges because they are truly hers only. I do not mind living the double life although, some days I'm drained. The Night sky has alwayz been so gud 2 me, and Im sure Lezire understandz. *sighs* Some morningz I wake up BlaXx, and I soon realize when I look in the mirror that Lezire was my chaperon the night before. I wake up wit Lezirez glow in my eyes, and her grin within my feelingz. BlaXx has No memory of what happened only Lezire.
Some people ask me questionz that only Lezire should have the answer for pero I try to answer them to the best of my ability as I get their blank stares. I see right through them though because I am a Fanger! I am Lezire and somehow it all works itself out in the end. Some days I can quench the the thirst myself. Other dayz Lezire must take over... Stud Vampirez do exist, so be careful whom you sleep w/ Femz.....
And 2 my fellow studz, Lady Vamper lurckz around the corner wating to seduce you as her neXxt victum.
{Lezire}

DaVinci Famillia

I'm creep'N up on my one year Anniversary with mi DaVinci Famillia and Im greaful to be apart of a famillia who defines the true meaning of amor, honor, loyalty, respect, and realness. When I 1st decided that I was going 2 join a casa. I really wasn't so sure porque I wanted to join I just knew if i did I wanted to be where I fit in and where I belong. I wanted the famillia to bring to me what I brought to the famillia. I wanted there to be hope within our LGBT Community that there was still good people in the community and show everyone we are not a huge soap opra. We have feelings and our sexuality is mas then a show, mas then a trend...
DaVinci's Came, Saw & Conquered all these things and mas. I amor Mi Davinci Famillia Y Natha can change that!
I owe a huge amount of my loyalty, amor & trust to my casa Madre (Mother Entyce DaVinci) For pushing the famillia to the places you see us today. For having hope in her sons and daughters as she over sees our covenant. (RED & BLACK)

Mucho Amor {Sir BlaXxIcaN DaVinci}

Content..

I am content in my own wayz, and most wayz many will never understand. I feel tho, as if, it starts within ones self to become content in your individual surroundings. One cannot make you content...for life. Content to me is calm. Something hella close to peaceful. A peaceful mind frame around situations great and tormenting. I'm honestly at the point in my life that I can say Im content.... I don't need stress in my life, no one does! I'm sure there are alot of things missing in my life, and many things I wish were, pero Im greatful God has me alive 2day and natha else matterz after that...

Be content with your life, You only live it once!

{Sir BlaXxIcaN DaVinci/Lezire Da Vampian}